My Health Stewardship 9.15.10

Well it has been a few weeks. I didn’t have a class on Memorial Day so I didn’t weigh in. So as of this last Monday I lost another 2.5 pounds for a total of 25.5 pounds total so far. I am on track for the most part. I think I have to lose just over 2 pounds a week in order to meet my goal in January. I have spent the last few months learning about my lifestyle change and what foods to eat and what foods are not so great for me. It has definitely been a learning process since I’m not on a particular “program”. I am actually quite proud of myself that I have lost weight without being on a particular program. It is just me learning what to eat (or what not to eat). It isn’t easy but then what is? I’m learning and that is all that matters. I’m not perfect and I’ve learned it is about balance. I’ve also learned not to put the pressure on myself to be perfect. I have done that in the past and it just creates a no-win vicious circle. Nothing, as far as food goes, is forbidden but it is all about portion size and eating the right things most of the time. I can still eat those foods that I enjoy so much (sweets) but not every day. For instance, Monday was our anniversary, so this weekend we celebrated. I had a piece of Chocolate Godiva Cheesecake from the cheesecake factory that was absolutely stellar. I realize I enjoy those “treats” more when they are “treats” instead of an everyday occurrence. Of course the calories in this slice of cheesecake was absolutely insane but I exercised a little more than usual and that seemed to work. (P.S. I’m not a cheesecake fan and I’m saying this piece was stellar) I’m learning what balance is. Balance isn’t every other day…balance is having a lot of healthy food and sweets here and there to balance it out. Everything in life has different amounts of balance. No two things are created equal. This is something pretty profound to me.



As a side note I reached a mini-goal. I have a scale at home that I haven’t been able to weigh on because I exceeded the weight limit. Well now… I can stand on the scale without it giving me an error and actually have it weigh me. I have to be careful though because I weigh myself on that scale in the morning in my “birthday suit” and the scale on Monday is definitely not in my “birthday suit” and it is in the evening. I actually weighed myself at home Monday morning and there was a 6 pound difference. So I don’t get attached to the scale at home but use it more as a way of gauging where I am. It has helped. If I am going down then I will go down on any scale. If I go up I will go up on any scale. So my goal is to continue going down.
 I’m still entertaining the idea of a life coach. I have a lot going on right now so not sure right this second is ideal but those of you that gave me names and phone numbers I have saved them and will call them when I feel like it is the right time. There are so many things I need to do it can get overwhelming. I try to continue to have the word “BALANCE” be the theme of my life right now but I don’t always accomplish it. I find myself getting stuck in my old ways, occasionally. But I am learning and that is all that matters.

I’ve noticed an attitude in myself. I’m actually taking care of myself for once. Not just by eating right and exercising but by all of the tons of different doctor’s appointments I have. My bosses probably are thinking I’m a big slacker right now as much time as I have been taking off of work. Ok, it isn’t THAT much time but to me it seems like a lot because I’m not used to taking care of myself in that way. Physical therapy and sleep apnea appointments are just a few. Luckily, physical therapy is once a month right now and I took a sleep apnea class already (yes, it seems as if Kaiser has a class for EVERYTHING) so in a few weeks I will pick up the machine on a Saturday to do my sleep apnea test. After going to my class I do realize I have many symptoms of sleep apnea but I am not sure I stop breathing. I’ve never been told I stop breathing but then I don’t think I’ve ever had anyone truly watch me sleep all night. We will see. All I know is I want to start sleeping better and waking up in the morning feeling like I got 8 hours of sleep (which I did) instead of feeling like I got 2 hours of sleep. Feeling groggy is not fun.

Well I seem to be in a blabbering mood tonight. So I am going to end it here otherwise I will continue to babble on and on. I can tell I’m in one of those moods. Journaling is my future.



Thank you for your love and support, as usual.